whore much huh ?!

about 3 years ago some skank who kept leaving anonymous comments on my blog and asked if i was a whore because of my blog title " life for rent " and if i was renting my body ?!!? Obviously the skank does not move around an educated bunch. moves around much just not the right move. how can i retort to something as stupid as that? So i obviously didn't because she wouldn't understand even if i prepared a pictorial chart for her.

the title for my blog came about 2 months after i found out.i was listening to music at work trying to piece the events of my life.i love dido and this one song stuck to the core of me. and that's when i decided to rent the title of her song. no truer meaning of this has been felt.at least by me,to me,for me.

so the skank can FUCK OFF to where ever the sun doesn't shine.

there. i've said mah peace :p

I'm still alive.

in case some of you are wondering!

i'll be blogging soon.

God knows i need to.

i had been circling around the idea of blogging again.

i just kept pushing the thought to the back of my mind.

but today i was reminded on why i should continue blogging.

simply because once a while it reminds people of the good that was in their lives.

and that is enough for me.

we miss you.

so far.

its too early in the morning on a public holiday.and to think i don't get $ for working is depressing.it's been raining every day that it's not funny anymore.my clothes have a certain unpleasant smell because the sun only comes out 3 hours in a day.maybe i should get a dryer.washed clothes are always warm and smell good.

my plants (not the virtual ones) look like they're about to wither too,my virtual farm is doing much better.occasional rain when it needs to.lots of sun.nice eh.yesterday,got myself a hot air balloon which sits a black sheep instead of my latest boytoy,chace crawford from gossip girls.he's 23 and hot.benny agrees that he is gorgeous which is both comforting and depressing.

i have a weakness for dimples

and a weakness for grubby looks

am in season 2 of gg.

love blair waldorf aka leighton meester-she's got character.
hate blake lively aka serene van der woodsen -after the 4th episode,you want to strangle her.

most of the boys/men are forgetable except my CC and chuck bass aka ed westwick.

i'd highly recommend GG for their fashionable wear,get envious with the lifestyle we will never have,extravagant parties the families host every week,how they make brunch look so classy and of course for chace crawford.

so just pop in the dvd,get a bar of chocolate,softest throw,lie on the couch and press ' play '

You know you love me.XOXO.Cheeky Girl.

p/s: m in love with good girls go bad.yeah i know,i have a versatile music sense,so sue me :P

" She was so shy

Till I drove her wild "

neckache.eye ache.finger ache.

since everyone who reads my blog ( all 7 of em') are ALSO on my FaceBook,i shan't waste too much time explaining the below snapshot.

To Boobieh who still refuses to be on Facebook, for whatever reasons i will never know, this is my farm on this game,Farm ville.

I am not a game freak.Really.I am not.I used to play Bejeweled and Zuma in the office when i could, not in my capacity as a TL of course.Cannot set bad example to the young ones.
So when i used to receive requests to join this which was for almost a month,i simply clicked " ignore ". Sorry to those who sent me these requests.

Then one fine day, i was bored to my wits.House was clean.Laundry Done.Watered my 2 plants.Boiled drinking water.Clothes folded.
Of course,was also coaxed by a good friend, i cannot reveal the name here.You know who u r.

I decided to click on the request and am now hooked.It's been about 2 weeks now and all i can think about when i'm anywhere but home is to harvest my crops (sounds so wrong) but you know what i mean rite?!

so im in level 16 now which is quite fantastical considering i started seriously about a week ago-not sure what is the last level yet.and all i was wondering in the past 2 days i've been off is what will i do with my time when i've made it to the absolute lasttttttt level.

then about 5 seconds ago,i came across a new game called Farm Town which is even cooler because they allow you to store the harvested produce and sell them in the market place.

How divine is that huh!!!!!!

k back to farming now.

have a good week you all.



p/s:gotta clear my tangible groceries bought about an hour ago.my juice boxes are dripping wet now.damn!?!!

black wednesday.

ok ok.i tumpang glamor also la.since i was a witness/victim/passenger of this unforseen tragedy.tomorrow will be a week since this happened.i'm just glad we're both walking,talking and breathing.

thank you boo.u will always be the first ones we call when shit hits the fan or not.it was almost like seeing jd motionless all over again.thank you frenchie for keeping calm.as i said to you all,if that happened to me,i'd b crying until the fire people come.

papa-please service your car soon.m worried.what with the stupid rain and all.

to everyone else i know and love -jaga-jaga di jalanraya.mwahssss....:)*

ah beng on tow.aiyoh!

my year of birth still trying to hold on.

always yours.

love the surprise.don't know what it's for.perhaps it is sweeter when one doesn't.

so from just me and my blessed heart, thank you you.

chopped.

My last hair snip was in April before the Europe trip;felt i had to have a new look.Jztin.my underpaid/no pay fashion consultant aka personal shopper has been naggin' ( after the 3rd time,it becomes a nag ) to pursue a radical change.

However,my round face and even rounder DOE eyes will not have any form of changes,radical or not.I wanted bangs.short.and maintain the length.i cannot do short either.my fine hair just will not have it.So i checked-in to Martin's Nuevo Salon at 5.30 and began work.

He relaxed my fringe,snipped it off,trimmed my back and sides. Finished at 8.15.

and Voila...Of course to have it look like this, i need Martin's magical hands,a hair dryer and for there to be no wind/sun/rain. How lah?!?!!

I hate blow drying my own hair/any one's. Air dry is THE way to go. :)*

want.

http://www.omnipeace.com/ im broke.so was advised against purchasing this online altho' the purchase would have clearly been

towards a charitable cause.:(

however to you rich folks,do visit the site and purchase anything BUT this t.

if i can't have it,no one can :P

my life's a BITCH.damn!

esfp

never really shared the warm friends i work with. i spend as much time in the office as i do away from it.so the people i work for and work with matter a lot to me.i hate crap office politics-life is just too short to deal with shit like that.thankfully the office politics is minimal.we address our bosses with their first names.we drink and club with our bosses.always been an open door policy.explains why i have STILL not looked elsewhere.so here they are.the reasons why my 5 work days go by easier.the pictures will show you what i mean. one thing is for sure - they definetely hire the best and they let us do the rest.

English partners in KL - june'08

@ Madam Kwan's Pavillion - june'08

1st team outing @ Pavillion - Aug'08

x-director's farawell makan-makan - feb'08

with hansom Fung = AmeX 30th Anniversary celebration - 220409

my cute BOSS in the suit and the multitude of talented leaders - nov'08

Cate & me wif Chris funkiest VP ) - angpow giveaways for CNY '09

have known this hot bod mum of 1 since 2001- love her honesty.

ayu which is really not us...:)

need i say more. Second best company to work in Malaysia.i'd say that is not bad for an organization that does not even have a local business in KL.

" American Express Sdn Bhd in Malaysia was named a Top 10 of Hewitt's Best Employers in Malaysia, as well as a Hewitt Best Employer in Asia for 2009. The company ranked as the second best company to work for in Malaysia, following the Ritz-Carlton. There was no ranking provided for the Best Employers in Asia list.

It is the second time American Express Malaysia, which includes employees from Global Network Services, Global Merchant Services and Customer Service International, has made the Malaysia list, with its first recognition awarded in 2005. The awards also closely follow Hewitt's recognition of American Express Hong Kong last month, which was revealed as a Top 5 Best Employer there.

The Hewitt Best Employers in Asia are selected among 912 companies representing 180,000 employees in eight markets: Thailand, Singapore, Malaysia, South Korea, India, Hong Kong, China and Australia/New Zealand. Other companies that also made the Asia list include: Agilent Technologies, Cisco Systems India, Domino's Pizza India, Federal Express Singapore and Malaysia, and Johnson & Johnson Medical China.

American Express was the sole credit card company to make the list and one of only two financial companies listed, alongside Hong Kong's Convoy Financial Services. The final list was published in Monday's Wall Street Journal Asia.

As for the Hewitt Best Employers in Malaysia list, American Express was the only financial company included, beating companies from multiple industries such as Federal Express, Hilton, Intel and McDonalds.

"It is truly an honor and a measure of success of all the employee and business- focused efforts we have put in place over the years," said Chris R Somervell, vice president, Risk Operations ASEAN, of the Kuala Lumpur call center. "These efforts have been built to ensure that we create an environment where employees feel that they are able to grow and contribute towards the organization and feel a part of the organization. Employees will be proud to be a member of an organization that has been named best employer."

Top 10 Hewitt's Best Employers Award 2009 (Malaysia)

1. Ritz Carlton

2. American Express (M) Sdn Bhd

3. Four Seasons

4. Federal Express

5. Agilent Technologies

6. SP Setia

7. Hilton

8. Intel

9. McDonalds (Golden Arches Restaurants (M) Sdn Bhd)

10. Telekom Malaysia (TM)

- - -

people hurt you.....because they can.....and they usually do.....

now.

" I’m breaking all the rules now anyway… since I’m going to hell.”
borrowed from 'Twilight'

bYoP

Today is International Pillow Fight Day.So,happy pillow fighting yo all.Over 75 countries are participating in this mayhem today. Kuala Lumpur's secret location was revealed at 4pm today.Found this idea quite fascinating.Wish i was OFF.Damn it.M stuck at work.Would have been interesting to laugh silly with friends n complete strangers in the midst of being sandwiched with tons of pillows-both hard n soft.As long as i don't leave with a neck sprain.

?pillow talk + pillow fight = awesome?

Westin Grande Sukhumvit, Bangkok Thailand

space to roll around over each other.or should the space be a lot less compact hmmm? :) large sized pillows for 2 heads to rest on.4 additional unnecessary smaller pillows which will definetely fall onto the floor anyways.sheets that feels like sheer satin on your bare skin.comfort that will keep you warm in the day and the night.

THIS must surely b HEAVEN on EARTH....

got my eyes on U...

slept well last nite.had 8 miscalls frm B-sorry B.didnt hear the phone at all.tat IS unusual.got to work b4 7.cheche is here to keep me laughing n sane till 2PM n bumped into a new hottie wen was walking to the pantry to get myself my wakeup fix.was polite to even allow me to walk ahead of him.chivalry is rare n very seducing.

cheche watched tis smiled n told me m sneaky.young though.very.y m i always attracted to the kids.ahhhh!anyway m loving tis 7am shift a lot more.tot of changing to 1pm-don't think so unless m convinced hard.real hard tat it's for the benefit of the "floor". :)

p/s:Jztin,m wearing that marilyn monroe skirt :) hmm....scared.

p/ss:dedicated " turn the lights down low " to cheche since she is on her 5am shift for a week-the kinda song to slow dance to on the beach under the moonlight...

can u handle me?

wikipedia says this of "pillow talk"

"Pillow talk is the relaxed, intimate conversation that often occurs between two sexual partners after the act of lovemaking, usually accompanied by cuddling, caresses, and other physical intimacy. It is associated with sexual afterglow and is distinguished from dirty talk which usually forms part of foreplay.
The content of pillow talk typically includes the sexual act itself, expressions of affection and appreciation, playful humor, casual anecdotes, and stories from childhood. A couple's pillow talk session is often used as a plot device in works of fiction and drama, such as movies and television. It offers a convenient setting for a couple to discuss relevant plot events or reveal new information to each other.
It also can consist of two or more friends talking late at night. The "pillow talking" generally takes place at night and involves talk of romantic interests. The friends do not have to be in the same bed, although this does happen occasionally"

p/s: felt the urge to share wif my fellow fans n frenz tis.some ppl seem to b of the opinion tat i either shy away or m not vocab equiped to handle the above sorts of talk.

so to u, u, n u...BRING IT ON! i say......

oh yeah, u might wanna back up that many statement of yers,dear. :)

my 1st home...lately...

tis is wer i spent too much of my time.i love my work area.it's in a corner.i love corners.just something sexy about corners.don't know what it is.it's probably got one of the best views in axp-klcc view.in the late nights when i wished i was elsewer,the view keeps me sane.i remember the nights lying on the klcc park staring at the stars.hmm..nice.

so back to THE workstation area in at least the 19th floor.i know it's messy.i've got stacks of paper waiting to be filed.any volunteers?i hate filing.i hate filing.i hate filing.my chinese plant tat was bought for more $$$ to come in is sitting... still alive!my coffee mugz,water tumbler,wet wipes,tissue box,magz,little irritating trinklets that i receive which is displayed bcoz there is no other use for it anyway,redoxon that i do not remember to chew on.bz chewin on other stuff.an abudance of chilli sauce n ketchup wc is probably expired.i tink.

wat else.yes.my moody laptop-it's got a mind of its own.shuts off by itself.craXy...

B-i love tis pic a lot.it's makeup less,its my not fake smile,my saucer doe eyes look not sooo doe,reminds me of mila whenever i wear that pullover.it's hers.so thank u.

p/s:spellchecked n grammertized tis entry twice to avoid someone sniggering in a corner...u know who u R...:p

You miss me. I miss you.

BC at 101.

You have not teared to me in too long.
It took me by surprise.
You pulled me towards you.
That too took me by surprise.
I know how much you want this to work.
I think or hope you know how much i want to work at it too.
I do not wish to give you empty promises.
I know you are trying.
Trying a lot harder than me.
You want me to need you.
I don't want to need you.
I know you want to hear me say those words.
So do i.
I know you know,that time is the cure.
I see clearly now what is facing us.
You have an image of 30 years ahead.
I have an image of the next 30 hours ahead.
We used to have it all planned out.
Now we sit together in solace.

Is this the beginning of an end?
Is this the end of a beginning?

What are we waiting for?

12.01.2009

Read this from the horoscope page of The Sun whilst havin' our coffee at Starbucks - so true!

“" One of your strengths is your ability to overcome even the most challenging obstacles. This can mean that you sometimes regret things that come too easily with certain weariness. Don’t allow that to undermine your enthusiasm for the offers now appearing. They’re every bit as good as they seem "

This was from Friendster’s daily horoscope tat drops onto my almost insignificant Friendster account...this is definitely directed to my beautiful friends...remember guys the entire month of JAN is my bday month...apparently I’m not demanding enough as said below ...... Hey don't shoot the messenger k..:)

" No matter whether it's in terms of friendship or romance, you deserve a relationship that is based on mutual respect -- is that what you have? Take a long, hard, honest look at your relationships, today. If you don't feel like you are getting what you need, it's okay for you to be more demanding. After all, others are demanding, too, from time to time, and you usually respond very favorably. Doesn't it stand to reason that they will be responsive to your needs as well? '"

p/s: Others may be too demanding right now, but try to give them what they want

13 n COUNTIN'

Haven't written in 3 days.

Haven't slept well or long enough in 3 days.

Haven't been able to taste the food i'm eating.

Having too much coffee and wine.Not enuf water.

I want to B far away.

I want to B in my lil' glass case back.

I m always safe and protected in it.

YOU knew how long it took for me to leave the case.

Now YOU have forced me to go back to that dark place.

Years will pass by before i am myself again.

Can YOU handle it?

Will YOU?

Can i wait till YOU do?

Will i ?

p/s: I soooo badly need the year to END! Kabish?

p/s for the 2nd time - I LOVE the month of DEC.M not gonna work the entire month next year!

I will not take SHIT anymore.
I am so drained out.
I am bored out of my brains (no offense to my beautiful frenz)
I am too irritated.
I am most of the times not myself.
I am pissed off a lot of the times.
I have become a pessimist on life and love.
I swear more which is really NOT me.
I am listening to the wrong music.
I am not couching and watching telly.
I have become this person that i do not recognize anymore.
I am impatient.
I am confused.




I am heading to the dark side,can you tell?

At first sight

Do you wonder at times if people are really who they say they are. If they've had a mask all this time. If they did, why?
Wouldn't it be easier just being themselves ? Could it be because being themselves was not good enough. Have i had a mask on me for sometime?
I possibly have. It wouldn't surprise me. A mask for every role that i have as a woman,a leader, a partner, a daughter, a friend, a sister, a colleague, a soul mate?
I wished i knew answers for all these questions i have. Doesn't matter if it's the right ones or not ?
I want to believe again. Can i? Should i? Could i? Must i?
I need to start writing non dark materials.....