back in motion.

morning commoners.
m @ work.my first weekend work.oh how i loath me.working on weekends.wishing i was snuggled under my comforter.not having a nightmare about paranormal activity 1.how am i to watch PA 2 now?and YES i have watched PA 1 at least 3 times!
happy 2011.its 29 days into the year.17 days after my 34th birthday.many days to go before my holiday trips kick in.can't wait.
the last 6 months of 2010 was hectic,thus the lack of material on my blog.however,i will try to make it up in my style,of course;with thousands of pictures.

was reading a blog which was not worth spending time on except to mock it; http://7dayholiday.blogspot.com/
papa,the avid surfer triggered anger in me yesterday about this india born indian girl passing thru Malaysia for all of 5 days and decided she should travel blog badly( might i add ) and inaccurately on somethings Malaysian.She has all but 3 posts.Like seriously....* roll eyes *
so i took all of 25 minutes to read her blog and find her to be shallow,unread and likes the word swagger and Africans. Nothing against both,but this woman overdoes it.
I was unable to leave a comment,so the plan is to comment on internets' NO 1 site - FACEBOOK as well as blog about this and reach out to my audience.
She writes that the Tamilans aka Indians in Malaysia eat more idlis and dosai/thosai as compared to the Indians in India. This is bull shit. I am a foodie and i do not crave for thosai everyday.You know why ?! Because i am spoilt for choice - chee chong fun,konloo pork noodles,nasi lemak with kerang,mamak mee,the occasional Big Breakfast etc.So really where is the thosai that us Indians are eating?!?!?!If anything the non Indians are seen enjoying such delicacies.
Point no 2; the Indians are all part of some gang!Quote unquote below;
" A lot of people I spoke to had seen or experienced crime by Indians first-hand. These gangsters created this unfortunate stereotype that has been carried in the media and makes Malays and people from other races wary of Indians as a community " Are you not stereotyping based on the 4 persons you have met ?
Does she know that the 87th richest person is the world is from a tiny country above Singapore?!YES she does.
Does she know that AirAsia, a highly successful low cost carrier and the brains behind it is a Malaysian? Again she does know.Yet .... she writes as such ...
At one point she redeems herself by stating " Politicians say Indians turn to crime because they feel marginalised from government development plans and lack equal education, business and job opportunities. A load of crap. A lot of Indians in Malaysia are doing well for themselves. It’s all about a person’s individual struggle and competition. " Like duh!
But 3 paragraphs after that she goes on babbling that " Some of these Indian men could also be educated with full-time jobs, but one drunken fit of stupor and the gangster in him is out " translated that once Indian men begin drinking they all become rowdy.

I am ticked off. Can you tell ? Enough said.
Off to Envie to drink ; the indian style NOT :)

Have a fantastic week ahead all ...
Toodles.

can't breathe.

m truly blessed.
i know too many people love me and yet why do i feel unworthy of all love?

m.

scared.
worried.
excited.
happy.
confused.
unsure.
oblivious.
hopeful.
hopeless.
missing.
zombified.
angry.
hurt.
cared.
dissapointed.
craXiness.
foolish.
drained.
blank.
calm.
prayful.
wondering.

karma...

Y-O-U can kiss my SWAG!!!

the honeSt me

1. Beer: Chilled.
2. Food: Home Cooked.
3. Relationships: ARGH!
4. Crush: David Archuleta.
5. Power Rangers: eeuu...
6. Life: Complicated.
7. The President: of U-S-A
8. Yummy: You.
9. Car: Speed.
10. Movie: Can't seem to sit still to get thru an entire movie.
11. Halloween: Trick or Treat?
12. Sex: Long.
13. Religion: Helps one stay rooted.
14. Hate: Liars.
15. Fear: Of never belonging completely to someone.
16. Marriage: Overrated.
17. Blondes: naughty or nice?
18. Slippers: shorts,beach,thongs=holiday.
19. Shoes: an addiction.
20. Asians: errr... boring ? narrow ? very few cool asians...
21. Pass time: Dream away.
22. One night stand : prefer stands-Hugh Jackman for starters...
23. My cell Phone: Can't live without.
24. Smoke: A must after food.
25. Fantasy: me + u ?
26. College: First Love. First HeartBreak.
27. High school Life: Unforgettable.
28. Pajamas: sexy sweet pink.
29. Stars: Romantic.
30. Center: like a hard candy with a surprise center.
31. Alcohol: Anytime.
32. The word love: been a while.
33. Friends: Can't live without them.
34. Money: Need more.Want more.Should have more.
35. Heartache: Numbing Pain.
36. Time: Never enough when u're happy.Too long when u're at work!
37. Divorce: Sad.
38. Dogs: Lovable.
39. Undies: Comfort.Lace.Low waist.
40. Parents: Need to spend more time.
41. Babies: Innocent.
42. Ex: Changed for the better.
43. Song: Saviour - Anggun.
44. Color: Confidence.
45. Weddings: Bliss.Loved.
46. Pizza: Dominos.only.
47. Hangout: Good company laughing.
48. Rest: Sleep- kissing whilst hugging.
49. Goal: Sweat.
50. Inspiration: Haven't found it.

m/nite delight

my sudden craving for you.

FaLLing

4.32pm.20th march.m cold.mind,body,heart.mr.carl is with me-for company.u’re on repeat.i hear u.i see u.i know u know. I know u know that I know too.i have nothing to offer.to u or anyone.anymore.tell me what I must do.tell me what I need to do to make your days and nights go by easier.tell me how to push u.i will do it.i wake up with hope.i go to bed with pain.n tat too is on repeat.tiring.every step I take away from u hurts.every step I take towards u hurts.u complete me at times.u keep me guessing always.

All my thoughts have you in mind.
All of my desires are of you.
All of me want every flaw of you.
All of me need every bit of you.
All of me want to make you smile.
All of me want to make you happy.
All of me want to hear you laugh.
All of me want to hold u too close.
All of me want to touch you.
All of me pines for you to be at peace.
All of me like you angry.
All of me like you cold.
All of me like you warm.
All of me want to see you play.
All of me want to see you run.
All of me want to see you move to the beat.

All of me wonder….

My every breath screams of your name…..in silence.
“What a beautiful mess this is, dear.”

I’ve done 81 out of the 132 stupid things.

Do this and re-post it with the title:
I’ve done XXX out of the 132 stupid things.

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(X) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(X) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 3

Level 2
(x) Are/Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(X) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 6

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(X) Skipped School

( ) Slept With A Co-worker

() Seen Someone/Something Die

SO FAR: 8

Level 5
(x) Had/Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(X) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 11

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(X) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook - ex after 12 years
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 13

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 16

Level 8
(X) Had A Tea Party
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (with my BMX)
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 19

Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 22

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 24

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(X) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(X) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 28

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 31

Level 13
( ) Had/Have Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 33

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 37

Level 15

( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 39

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
( ) Played Cops And Robbers
(X) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
( ) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 42

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn’t
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 45

Level 18
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 48

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 52

Level 20
(X) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 53

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex’s Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 54

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done/Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(X) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 57

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
( ) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been in a tree house.
(x) Been scared to watch Scary Movies alone

SO FAR: 58

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
(x) Have had More Than 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 60

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You’re Hot By A Complete Stranger
(X) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 63

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one (one of the “50 things i wanna do before i die” list)
( ) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
( ) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 64

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone - heheheheheh….
(X) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone’s Name
(x ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(X) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 70

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 75

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 79

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
(X) Flattened someones tires - wanted to, though! - does scratching his car with keys count :)
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

GRAND TOTAL : 81 - - - - lots more to do especially point 2 level 32...:)

fading....

do u think of me in the days?

do u think of me even in the nights?

do u miss me in the days?

do u miss me more in the nights?

do i miss u?

do i?

should i?
must i?

would i?

" Sometimes you pick your friends, sometimes they pick you "

my gorgeous angels.

let me introduce my bestest gals frenzzzz.i have been missing them for different reasons lately.maybe it's the whole aging process.i dunno.i know 10 years ago whilst sitting in the park curi curi smoking,we would have thought our lives would have been "settled" quite happily.now,i know we would rather pick that cold not soo clean park giggling silly and talk cock,huh?

tups-y-m so glad u're back n safer here near family n frenz.UK was something you had to do which saved u the next 40 years of misery.i admire your courage and independence.n YES-i will be fine....soon :)

macpei - i know letting go is never easy.u deserve better.always remember and believe in that u hot indian babe stuck in a chink body...

mila - u r NOT giving up.not just yet k?we will do the " follow the white line "in may when i get ter k.:)

mna - we love u.too much.tat's y we want to see u in a better place as a better person.

mummy - miss your care.i'll come back to u soon...

shu - how's oliver?how's ben?

sammy - have fun wif the bad boys.they R a lot more FUN...dangerous.yummy!

sin - will try to be a better fren n keep in touch more.was good to see ya last month.n YES - will save $ to visit u in the states n check out miami.:)

sarah-miss u screaming my name n watching u "kena" oppressed by mummy..hahahaha...

“A friend drops their plans when you're in trouble, shares joy in your accomplishments, feels sad when you're in pain. A friend encourages your dreams and offers advice--but when you don't follow it, they still respect and love you.”

that's what u gals do for me...bcoz i know m a lil' stubborn!

mwahhhhhhsssssssssss

hugz n kisses wherever u R.

LisT GettinG ShorteR - Slowly but Surely

thnx B - the scent still lingers on past 9 hours :)

i wanna dance all nite wif loud music!

been a long day.
m tired.wat's new...
its the same shit different day? hmmm...
cancelled lunch wif mumz.i know she's pissed.will make it up to you soon...
got yer call n found myself apologizing for not telling u my off days...sorri is all i can offer now.

met tups.felt good to laugh silly for the stupidest convos.missed u gals being ter- macpei,mila,mummy,even mna.
had our spicy chicken in remembrence of mila.i tapau for u sum k for may...

lately,i've been travelling to our finnegans' moments,php moments,follow the white line moments.

played one game of pool."messed around".got hearted foolishly by B.no more B.no more.
tighten my sunnies n reading glasses.
got scolded.wc C says is normal.:(
m YM'ing...

i miss U,i miss u not.I miss u,I miss U not....
one day at a time,huh?

" You gotta love me in the light and the dark "

fingers entwined.
sweet long kisses.
ice cream in bed.
coffee on the couch.
feeding on the kitchen counter.
snuggling close in the smallest space.
too damn close against a wall corner.
warm baths in candles lit.
legs interlocked.
slow mo under the moonlight.
ear nibbling.
baby kisses on the neck.


p/s: how are you?
sick.
working?
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11.20pm 16/02/09
7.17am 17/02/09

I have nothin' better to post .... n this looked enticing !

i am ...

i really want to go ...

my favourite place is ...

i live in VAC ...

my favorite color is ...

my favorite food is ...

my favorite things R ...

my favorite drink is ...

my favorite story is ...

my favorite hobby is ...

i wish for ...

p/s: m taggin' all my fans that find ME interesting....:)

I wanna KNOW u.

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It's been the longest 6 months...How long more do i need to wait to gain my sanity :(

Different state of mind

It's been almost a month that have yet to pen my blog.I've been busy!I even forgot my password to enter the blog.WTF!
What have i been busy with?or who have i been busy with?hmmm....
Benny's bday do in Genting happened on 11th Oct 08.My go green project happened.Shit load of work happened.India happened which i am thankful for-something new to look forward to coz everything else is so darn out.Clubbed at Centro on a Sunday ( pathetic i know )My ears were numb listening to the same beat in 300 songs.WTF!
Am hoping this weekend will redeem last weekend. Will have to wait n see,hmmm...:)

P/S: Want vs Need ? or can a gal have both of it ? :)

Weekend

The last weekend was a good weekend. Met up with old frenz.Faced my personal fears.Met new ones at AHR.Checked out Club 21-very HOT.Cooked on my half working stupid stove.Am so gonna break it once i purchase a traditional one.Old skool still the best.Ate.Drank.Played.Was MERRY.Slept like a baby!
Need to get another bottle of Jose Cuervo.
Hmm...probably in L'Kawi at year end.
Next on the list - Bring back the romance :)

"My insecurity Is takin' over me.I need to know where we stand.Is this a symptom of Us fallin' out of love.What happened to the romance?"